Category Archives: My Story

The struggle to be the better person

Oh my god.  If I see one more motivational, positivity post about not wishing pain on someone who has harmed you but to wish them healing instead, I’m going to just scream. Be the better person.  That’s great and all.   The theory is that the person only harmed you because they were in pain themselves.  Right. That may very well be true when dealing with ‘normal’ people, but people with ASPD don’t feel love and don’t feel pain.  They don’t feel much of anything! And inflicting pain […]

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LOA, Fear and Subconscious

Do you believe in the Law of Attraction? That what you spend your energy thinking about will come to pass in your life? That good attracts good and bad attracts bad? Ever since I was a young girl, fear of financial disaster has plagued me. My dad was the type of guy who could quit his job on a whim, despite the fact that he was the sole support in a household with 5 kids and a wife. A wife that he simply did not want to […]

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Revenge (I’m only human)

I’m struggling with the strong feeling of vengeance that I have in my heart. It feels black and ugly and unhealthy to hold onto this. Yet, it is so very hard to forgive what has been almost a fatal wound for me. I logically understand that forgiveness is for ME – so I can move on with my life without hanging onto something that is over. Emotionally, I am just having a really, really hard time with it. After 20 years of knowing each other, and 9.5 […]

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